So thankful that The Father holds us in his hands never to let go........
I fold laundry and the tape of a broken past plays in my head. I go to sleep at night and the dreams are there. Why not dreams of beaches and fun times. Only with God's healing of our minds can we move past the broken beginnings. It is hard, pray for the forgivenss to take place. I guess it is little piece by little pieces at time. A life time process, possiblely not even completed in old age, maybe not in this life time, but healing in eternity.
I guess this is why I am drawn to parenting the broken. We chip away little pieces to get to know her. It is a process of two steps forward and one back. Sneha's thoughts are locked away in her mind and a voice that will not respond to let them out. We will probably not ever know what happened and why she shuts us out. I do know that she is safe now and will never endure what happened in the past. Give us patience to give her time to unlock herself. Give us understanding that all things happen in God's timing and that is not our time......She is starting to learn that we will not leave her alone and we will always be there to help. How could someone ever forget their mother walking about in train station that is loud, dirty, so crowded, and then she didn't ever come back. Not ever to return, turned her back and walked a way. It is easy to speculate maybe she was sick and strarving and knew that the police would find a place for Sneha. Probably a better place than she could provide, maybe her mother was homeless? At least the train station was safe from the dogs and critters out in the open. Sneha has scars on her cheeks like she layed on lots of gravel or dirt when she was little.
Elijah is beginning to unlock his heart to us. I can't imagine the feeling of being left on a street in the "Wuhan" district of a city of 6. 1 million people. Then he was in the hospital for the first month of his life after and interrcranial bleed which caused a stroke. Then he went to the orphange for a short while and in the mean time they matched him with a loving foster family in the village of Anning in the mountains by Kunming. He lived with this family until 2 weeks before we came to adopt him. He then transition for 2 weeks in the orphange. Then we came to adopt him and he had never even seen blue eyed people. His world has been rocked many times in his short life. I am very thankful that with love and prayer his life is being redeemed. His attitude is surprisingly positive and he is such a hard workers. I think he is realizing that we are forever never to leave him.
Psalms 107 1-3
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever. 2 Let the redeemed of the LORD tell their story— those he redeemed from the hand of the foe, 3 those he gathered from the lands, from east and west, from north and south.
I fold laundry and the tape of a broken past plays in my head. I go to sleep at night and the dreams are there. Why not dreams of beaches and fun times. Only with God's healing of our minds can we move past the broken beginnings. It is hard, pray for the forgivenss to take place. I guess it is little piece by little pieces at time. A life time process, possiblely not even completed in old age, maybe not in this life time, but healing in eternity.
I guess this is why I am drawn to parenting the broken. We chip away little pieces to get to know her. It is a process of two steps forward and one back. Sneha's thoughts are locked away in her mind and a voice that will not respond to let them out. We will probably not ever know what happened and why she shuts us out. I do know that she is safe now and will never endure what happened in the past. Give us patience to give her time to unlock herself. Give us understanding that all things happen in God's timing and that is not our time......She is starting to learn that we will not leave her alone and we will always be there to help. How could someone ever forget their mother walking about in train station that is loud, dirty, so crowded, and then she didn't ever come back. Not ever to return, turned her back and walked a way. It is easy to speculate maybe she was sick and strarving and knew that the police would find a place for Sneha. Probably a better place than she could provide, maybe her mother was homeless? At least the train station was safe from the dogs and critters out in the open. Sneha has scars on her cheeks like she layed on lots of gravel or dirt when she was little.
Elijah is beginning to unlock his heart to us. I can't imagine the feeling of being left on a street in the "Wuhan" district of a city of 6. 1 million people. Then he was in the hospital for the first month of his life after and interrcranial bleed which caused a stroke. Then he went to the orphange for a short while and in the mean time they matched him with a loving foster family in the village of Anning in the mountains by Kunming. He lived with this family until 2 weeks before we came to adopt him. He then transition for 2 weeks in the orphange. Then we came to adopt him and he had never even seen blue eyed people. His world has been rocked many times in his short life. I am very thankful that with love and prayer his life is being redeemed. His attitude is surprisingly positive and he is such a hard workers. I think he is realizing that we are forever never to leave him.
Psalms 107 1-3
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever. 2 Let the redeemed of the LORD tell their story— those he redeemed from the hand of the foe, 3 those he gathered from the lands, from east and west, from north and south.
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