A day of happiness and sadness at the same time. Once a family is touched by adoption you can't help but to think of all the precious children in the world without their mothers. My heart was very heavy this Mother's Day. Elijah misses his foster mother in China so much that he tries not to think about China at all. What about his birth mother? We never know the sadness in her heart that she carries to this day. What is wrong with a world that say we will treat your child at the hospital if they are abandoned, but if a mother who can't pay for the expenses tries to get treatment for her baby she is turned away. The only option of LOVE is to love enough to let go. Is Sneha's mother even alive or did she die of starvation on the streets of city with 16 million people around her, but so alone without help. Was she herself without the mental capacity to know any better or just to leave her child in crowded bus station to be found. She was so weak and sick from malnutrition that she couldn't even walk at 3 years old. God saved her, he had big plans for the helpless, weak, and challenged. Sometimes I look at her face that has tiny scares all over the skins surface knowing that she laid on the dirt and cement at one time. I just can't imagine having nowhere else to lay one's head, but on the dirty ground. When ever I discouraged by the small details of our lives I think we must keep going asking God what else can I do? Why don't more people grieve for the orphan? It consumes my thoughts and the corners of my heart. How can we think that it is someone else's job to care for the least of these. I thought I had prepared myself enough for the concentration camp appearance of the orphan, it is not possible.
When we knew that we were to adopt Sneha it grieved my heart to adopt a child with so many needs. I spoke with a lady that had met her and she told me she will NEVER be able to sit down and read a novel or care for herself. I am now thankful that God trusted us with his dear treasure. The LORD told us if you do not adopt her no one else in the entire world will. God kept urging us forward and would not let me forget about her. I tried to forget her and I am so thankful that HE wouldn't let me. We had to wait so long to finally adopt her because God had a lot of work to do in our hearts preparing us for the future task. It is hard to think that in the future she will be a three year old in woman's beautiful body. This is all the more reason that she needed us because she is so beautiful and now no one will take advantage of her and make her a prostitute. She is safe and now at home. Thanks be to God!!!
Lord please send us, prepare us, we are no longer content with the American dream.